豪斯医生第八季

If I leave you,

 it doesn't mean I love you any less,

 keep me in your heart for a while.

《豪斯医生》/《House M.D.》第八季最后几集里配乐的歌词。

 

第三季最后一集里Foremen离开，而后cameron也选择辞职，house居然也炒掉了最后一名成员chase。

在那个不算冷的寒假里，就看那一集的那天让我冷彻心扉。看house看了挺久的时间，我第一次感受到离别的苦涩。殊不知之后的剧情更跌宕，苦涩得更多。

house明明是错愕的，心里的孤独快要溢出他的皮囊淹没整个空荡荡的办公室了，他依旧没有表现出任何的软弱。他的孤傲不羁不允许他有任何的让步。

 

是的，我和舍友讨论起这部剧给我带来的感受，我都会想到两句：

“Everybody lies.”

"Life sucks."

这是house 的人生信条。

他医术高明，行医大胆，极端聪明，不按常理出牌，喜欢恶作剧，对他人的自尊漠不关心而加以践踏，嘲笑世间一切美好。

他每次医治病人，喜欢叫鸭子们潜入病人的家寻找病灶，与此同时搜刮肮脏秘密。每个人都撒谎，每段关系的背后都有背叛和互相伤害，科学是废物，信仰更是垃圾。他坚信如此，质疑一切人与人之间正常的感情，并试图破坏以寻找谜题的答案。活生生一个撒旦。

以至于cameron和13曾带着鄙夷与不可思议对house说：你的人生就是要把别人的人生弄得像你那样lonely和miserable。

 

在他眼中吧，正常算是个什么玩意儿。

 

阿旺说，虽然没看完八季，看影评时被剧透，发现house一生其实还是很悲剧的。

他的妻子stacy在他腿瘸后与他离婚，cudddy深深伤害了house后房子被撞的稀巴烂house于是可以去jail里逃避人生，Dominika明明爱着house但还是选择离开。

甚至，wilson最后居然患上癌症，只剩五个月的性命。我一直以为，wilson作为house的好基友，创造了无数笑料、温情的一对，他们会一直幸福地走下去，一如house在小黑屋里弹着悲伤得掉水的钢琴曲然后wilson出现在他家门口，问“你还有奥利奥吗”那种无法言喻的心领神会。

是不是，他们都觉得，the way I love you and heal you is to leave you?

种种情节让我胸腔钝痛，嗓子喑哑，在无奈中收获真理：

你终你一生寻找真理，但有时候真理就是那么不堪。

 

house邪恶的笑和无与伦比的智商，一度让我非常着迷。他同时非常欠揍，从不费心于交朋友，玩弄别人的感情是家常便饭。

他的内心其实是孤寂的。Caring hurts.他便活成一只刺猬，不断挑战wilson的底线。他不相信wilson会一直陪在他身边。

但他无法停止的索取，让他变得非常依赖wilson。

wilson在得癌症后house仍要他帮忙替罪：反正都要死了，不会进监狱的。

wilson本身答应，尔后过了一分钟，说，不。

“你觉得我会一直替你背黑锅，就算你进了监狱我也会保你出来。可是，我现在要教会你，”

“我要教会你不能这么想了，五个月后，我就不在了。”

house的表情瞬间刺激我的泪腺。那是多么大的、无法隐藏的失落与无助。看透了未来的绝望。

 

也许因为如此，他在火海中对着幻觉中的amber，kutner,stacy，cameron说，

I have nothing to lose.

他打算懦弱地逃避，逃避没有wilson的日子，逃避只能靠维克丁缓解腿疼的日子，逃避天天活在孤寂与悲惨中的日子。

wilson赶到火灾现场时，正好目睹house头顶的火柱掉落，整个房子爆炸——

披着大衣的wilson坐在灾后的房子前，神情十分苍老。

 

这些年看那么多美剧，太多的葬礼，都没能让我哭。只有这一次，house的葬礼，每个熟悉的面孔上去致辞，过去一幕幕情节闪现在我脑海，让我特别悲伤，我的心像被揪碎了，张口只有挣扎的鸣咽。

house大叔，你其实不可恨，你只不过有点lonely和miserable罢了。

 

结局固然非常梦幻。house不可能就这么死去，他再次玩弄别人的感情，像个美式英雄片的结局，他其实是逃出了火场。

只不过，他让过去的doctor house死去了。

他这么做，只想好好陪wilson“enjoy yourself”，死于旅途、死于狂欢、死于麦田，哪个不是比死于cancer更浪漫呢。

 

 

人性的恶在这部剧中得以剖析，但所呈现的结果却比任何一部单单只讲美好的影片或电视剧更加美好。

Life still sucks.

生活依然操蛋，看你是否有说“cancer is boring”的勇气。

 


听着“keep me in your heart for a while”，不舍难言。

再见了，大叔。

8年，我跟随你和你的团队8年，足够入戏了，

不仅仅是记住了不少疑难杂症，还不小心让你偷了心。

就连最后这一季度，你都没放过所有爱你的人，狠狠的给了一记：万恶恶人的回报之爱。

如此自私到极点、自闭到极点、不表达爱意、不否认爱意、不接受他人的善意、我行我素。

纵然真有一个这样能让人又爱又恨的人，想必我也是吃不消的，会和威尔森一样气个半死吧。

真心觉得你们俩才是真爱，爱到愿意为对方去死。

哈哈哈原谅我如此坚定的觉得：虽然肉体上你们不是GAY，精神上却一定是爱到入骨的一对，

让我羡慕嫉妒恨！恨是因为真的特别喜欢你，特别喜欢。

你强大的内心聪明而睿智！

这一刻要和你说BYEBYE了，才知道有多么的不舍得，

知道你将再也不会从影了，唯有遗憾。

只想说：你是影视界这辈子我会念念不忘的一个人。

嗯，我爱你。

前3季反复刷了无数次，沉迷于揭开豪斯所有隐喻的来源——这是我考托福时的唯一乐趣。以为「X-Files」之后再也不会爱了，但三小鸭解散真是有心痛的领悟，所以到了五胡乱房的第四第五季，一度抗拒看豪斯。但大叔还是不可挡，继续追了下去。2012年终于到了洛杉矶、开车进FOX里转，但豪斯也真的结束了。

2014年重温豪斯，从第一季再看到最后一季，除了一票主角，顺便也数一下几个脸熟的病人。以下做个笔记。


S1E01
Prison Break里的律师，Mentalist里的Jane

S1E03
Gossip Girl里的Damian Daalgard

S1E07
「Prison Break」的林肯哥哥

S1E09
Matrix 3里的黑人将军
客串－歌手Brandy （The Boy is Mine）

S1E11
病人－Master of Sex里追女主而不得的Ethan Haas医生
病人女友－Amanda Seyfried
病人老爹－「The Big Bang Theory」里Sheldon和Lenard的上司Gablehauser

S1E13
病人爸爸－「Dark Knight」系列哥谭市自带眼线市长

S1E14
「暮光Twilight」女主她妈Reene

S1E17
「好老婆The Good Wife」Peter的黑人律师

S1E18
好汉两个半里的Judith

S1E20
「Star Trek」新电影版的Sulu

S1E21
House前女友Stacy - CSI的Jo

S2E04
「Sex and the City」用纸条和Carrie说分手的作家男友

S2E09
「Sex and the City」 Miranda

S2E15
病人老婆－94年电影版「Little Women」里长大后的小妹

S2E16
「Gossip Girl」的Georgina

S2E18
「GLEE」的Emma

S2E19
电视剧版终结者男主John Connor

S3E01
UCLA校园！

S3E03／04
「Gossip Girl」Blair串场

S3E08
Patrick Fugit，电影「Almost Famous」男主

S3E15
Dave Matthews

S3E17
客串－Tyson Ritter (The American Rejects核心)

S3E18
「Criminal Minds」Emily走后、替代她的黑人mm

S4E09
「The Hurt Locker」男主，妇联的鹰眼

S4E10
电影「Trust」女主

S4E14
「Sex and the City」Samantha的小男友Smith

S5E11
Cuddy孩子的生父－「X-Men」镭射眼的弟弟Havok
圣母病人－Grimm女主

S5E15
「纸牌屋House of Cards」那位歇斯底里的黑客

S6E01
Lydia：电影「罗拉快跑Run Lola Run」的Lola
Steve：Lola演员的老公

S6E02
James Earl Jones，星战黑武士的配音

S6E07
电影「Soldier's Girl」和Lee Pace配对的男主，也是Jane Fonda的儿子

S6E17
「Prison Break」女主Sara

S7E02
电影「Step Up 3D」Moose的小女友

S7E07
「The Good Wife」的杀妻疑犯、L&G大客户Sweeney

S7E11
电影「Wedding Crusher」男主

S8E03
「Prison Break」男主

"Everybody lies."

I saw this rather bitter doctor on TV at a friend's house eight years ago. I didn't know I would be looking forward to see this brutally candid and miserable doctor week after week for the past eight years. When the finale of the series ended this Monday, I felt almost like saying goodbye to an old friend. I can't help smiling a bit when I'm writing this down "saying goodbye to an old friend". Seriously? This manipulative drug-addict?

Dr. House is a caustic, egotistical pill-popper who'd insult a dying woman to her face for his own misanthropic reasons but also because doing so would have provided him with some vital insight into her secrets. He'd throw a bomb like "Nobody wants to die but you are going to" to a nine-year-old's face just to "test" the true bravery of this dying girl and whether it's her own will to go through these brutal pains. He's ask a leukemia boy to undertake a suicidal procedure simply because "you are dying either way but you can save your brother". There was brilliance behind those cantankerous behaviors. If it weren't for the Holmesian powers of deduction that allowed him to save lives, he would have been totally irredeemable.

He doesn't believe anyone, especially his patients. "Everybody lies." - that's his famous motto. Surprisingly, you'd be amazed by how far people could go to hide the truth, or to avoid confronting the truth. He mocks everyone around him: friends, colleagues, patients and families. He manipulates whoever stands in his way of seeking the truth, of solving the puzzles and discovering the facts. He shrank a patient's oversized tumor in order to qualify him for the surgery. He hid the fact that his drug-addictive heart-failing patient was self-destructive so that she had the chance to receive a new heart. He mocked and manipulated a brain-dead Asian guy's family and made them agree to donate his liver. "There's no such thing as die with dignity. You only live with it." Was it all for the sake of the patient? Not necessarily. It's simply for the sake of "solving the puzzle". In the end, his patients were saved.

"Do you want a nice doctor to hold your hands when you die, or a jackass doctor to save your life?" House once asked.

I'm asking myself the same question here. The answer is: I would choose the latter. Dr. House is a healer after all. He saves lives that other doctors failed to do so.

You can say that the only thing matters for him is the puzzles. I couldn't think of one single time when he abused the rules, either administrative or ethical, was for his own interests. Somehow part of him knows how to love. He has a heart, and probably a soul. As it stands, he's the most memorable and beloved character in recent TV history.


"Everybody Dies.”

Dr. Wilson is Dr.House's very best and only friend. When they were nearly strangers, House bailed Wilson out of jail. That's how this long bittersweet bromance began. There was a million times when House needed Wilson and Wilson was there for him. There was only a few times when Wilson needed House. House always ran away, rather than confronted his friend. That seems to be the way this jerk deals with real problems in his personal life. He escapes. He hides. He tries to quit his life.

The finale finds our doctor in purgatory. The fires of his personal hell lapping at him, waiting to consume him. Facing jail, the soon-to-come death of Dr.Wilson, and the refusal of his colleagues to further enable him, House was at a crossroads— once again in his life. His plan of spending his time with Wilson during his last five months was totally jeopardized by his sentence of six months in jail. Instead of asking Wilson to bail him out or to go through chemo, House chose "death" . He faked his death in order to avoid going to jail and to spend his time with Wilson they way Wilson wanted. House played his last card. He could never practise medicine again in his life. He'd be sent to jail for years from what he did.

"Wilson, I'm dead."

Although we will not see them, the next months for House will not be easy ones. He will learn to care for his friend, to be the adult in ways that he has never had to before. But he is willing, at least now, to confront this time. He is no longer more willing to self-destruct, to hide, to run away—to kill himself, but instead, for the last months of Wilson's life to put someone else ahead of himself.

There was a million times Wilson was there for House. In the end, House was there for Wilson for the last time. The cost was his practise of medicine, and his "life".

His first three ducklings' lives shine: Dr. Cameron is the head of Emergency; Dr.Chase is the head of Diagnostic, which used to be House's position; and Dr.Foreman is the Dean of Medicine. No one could ever question Dr. House's mastery in medicine.

Although he's removed from the living-people's list, he will remain in my heart for a long time.