一位年轻医生的笔记 第一季

年轻医生的身上完全没有任何哈利波特的影子，蛋泥的演技真的进步特别大！杀死汝爱中的演技也蛮好的，就是把艾伦金斯堡演得太受（真是太可爱了我把持不住）了，不知道现实中艾伦和卢西安谁是攻= = 年轻医生这部看完之后我甚至要讨厌他了，分分钟想要穿到剧情里掐死他！因为一个角色而讨厌一个演员，应该说明他塑造的还蛮成功的？(我还是爱蛋泥的，大型精分现场)
       两季8集的迷你剧，前半搞笑，后半黑暗。我想这是关于一个自我原谅，自我赎罪的故事，虽然它被放置在沙皇倒台，白军和布尔什维克内战的年代。虽说政治上的隐喻就算有我也看不出来，但是我倾向于把政治倾向套进来的话属于过度解读，就像闪着诡异的光~
       蛋泥把年轻医生面临真实紧急的医疗情况时的焦灼，退缩，紧张，甚至恐惧表现得非常夸张，这种夸张的表演效果让整个剧情荒诞得令人发笑。一个拿了15门A的帝国医学毕业生，在面临横置型胎位的时候竟然要去翻书，再抽根烟冷静一下。
        年轻医生一方面害怕自己不能胜任职位，一方面又渴望帮助病人，做出一番事业，比如说建立一个梅毒防疫中心。（这种心理其实和大部分刚走出象牙塔的大学毕业生很相似，另外15门优秀并不代表你可以在工作中如鱼得水，但是没有基础知识你会连翻谁的著作都不知道）医生对于华丽裤子，报纸的执着可能源于心里对于城市生活的不舍与怀念，他希望有一天可以回到莫斯科，而不是在一个离最近的商店都有将近100俄里的小医院度过自己的青春岁月，甚至变成奇怪名字的大胡子医生。
       也许是因为被无聊生活逼迫，被奇怪时刻到来的形形色色的病人折磨，胃痛的难以忍受，以及性生活上的不满意，让他开始注射吗啡。而他对于自己医生身份的盲目自信让他觉得自己不会上瘾，不幸的是会水的人通常被淹死。幻觉，失禁，无意识射精……种种不良反应让他更加绝望，对自己，对周边的人感到愤怒。（远离毒品啊旁友们，可怜的医生……他给自己注射吗啡的时候我就和年长医生一样无奈又心痛）
       吗啡把年轻医生彻底改变了，也许不是吗啡改变了他，而他本身就一个懦弱又自私的人。为了逃避检查，眼睁睁看着检察官痛苦死去；为了年轻美丽的Natasha他可以转身残忍抛弃助产士；他可以面不改色编造谎言；他可以为了生命不假思索地出卖自己的朋友；为了吗啡，吗啡，吗啡，他可以听着地狱之声独自逃跑，留下可怜的Natasha活活烧死……
       而年长医生，选择原谅过去的自己，他亲吻年轻医生的鼻梁，和他一起跳舞，一起洗澡……他在雪地里向过去的自己嘶吼，在葬礼上蔑视，在火光冲天的铁轨旁咒骂……但是这一切都是幻觉，对于过去的自己毫无改变，于是他回来了，回到那个已经挂着他自己画像的，只剩下一人的小诊所，他回来寻找曾经的友人，也许还有爱人（我不知道他到底爱不爱那个助产士，但是无疑助产士在他最不堪的时候一直陪伴在他的身边）他选择回来救赎自己。
        这部剧短，节奏紧凑，剧情连贯，配乐也符合黑色幽默，更别提两位大名鼎鼎的主演火腿叔和蛋泥了！（这对Cp看得我好饿）有时间还要再刷几遍，蛋泥的衬衫和偏分的刘海儿戳死我~欢迎来和我讨论剧情！~
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（本文原作者为牛津 John Radcliffe Hospital 的妇产科医生 Chris Bird）

In 1916 Mikhail Bulgakov, 24 years old and fresh from medical school in Kiev, was posted to a snowbound rural clinic in northwestern Russia, “thirty-two miles from the nearest electric light,” to fill a gap left by doctors serving on the eastern front. In his semi-fictionalised account, A Country Doctor's Notebook, the young medic spends the journey to the remote hospital on rutted tracks, worrying about how he will cope with tracheotomies and obstructed labour (he has seen only two normal deliveries at medical school), fretting over his youthful appearance, and urging himself to walk, not run.

1916 年，24 岁的基辅医学院应届毕业生 Mikhail Bulgakov 被派遣到西北部一个常年被雪封住，而 22 里外才有电灯的乡村诊所，来填补都去了东部前线的医生们的空缺。他的半虚构自传《A Country Doctor's Notebook》（ http://book.douban.com/subject/4253913/ ）即描述了一个刚刚经过长途跋涉来到偏远医院的年轻医师。主人公纠结于如何实施气管切开术和难产手术（而此前他也仅仅目睹过两次顺产），亦纠结于自己青涩的外表和走路姿势。

He doesn't have to wait long before a cart rumbles into the hospital yard carrying a young woman with a leg smashed in a flax brake, her pulse barely palpable. “‘Die. Die quickly,' I said to myself. ‘Die. Otherwise what am I to do with you?'” However, he horrifies himself by ordering the “feldsher,” the Russian equivalent of a physician's assistant, to prepare the theatre for an amputation. His own adrenaline as potent as the camphor injections given to revive the patient, he saves her by removing the leg.

Later he is presented with a fetus with a transverse lie and has to examine the woman in front of the hospital's veteran midwife: “The fact was that once the experienced Anna Nikolaevna had told me what was wrong, this examination was quite pointless.” The midwife breaks protocol, advising a “podalic version.” The doctor gravely concurs, announces that he's off for a cigarette, and runs to look up “podalic version” in his textbook of operative obstetrics. As they scrub in, Anna Nikolaevna recounts how his predecessor performed the procedure. “I listened avidly to her, trying not to miss a single word. Those ten minutes told me more than everything I had read on obstetrics for my qualifying exams, in which I had actually passed the obstetrics paper ‘with distinction.'”

Such an internship, including an attack by wolves while on his way to a home visit in the middle of a blizzard, is no longer the norm for house officers (although it remains so for many doctors in the developing world). But Bulgakov's struggle with the dark Russian winter swirling outside his window symbolises the lack of experience, loneliness, and the worry of breaking the Hippocratic oath that gnaws at the sleep of junior doctors everywhere.
（以上情节皆与短剧如出一辙）
Shattered by morphine addiction, typhus, and his forced conscription during the brutal Russian civil war, Bulgakov abandoned medicine to write, including the novel The Master and Margarita. The attentions of the Soviet censors, Stalin's secret police, and renal disease pushed Bulgakov into an early grave (his brother Nikolai escaped Russia to become a respected cardiologist in Paris). He had his doubts about the medical profession—“I won't call doctors murderers, that would be too harsh, but I will call them casual untalented hacks”—but medicine was for him a light in the dark days of Soviet repression. “Each person ought to be a doctor,” Bulgakov wrote, “in the sense of disarming all the invisible enemies threatening life.”
在吗啡上瘾、梅毒、和在这场野蛮的内战的强制征兵的高压下，Bulgakov决定弃医从文，并写下了小说《大师与玛格丽特》（ http://book.douban.com/subject/1077492/ ）。苏维埃的审核制度、斯大林的秘密警察与肾病迫使 Gulgakov 英年早逝。而值得一提的是，他的哥哥 Nikolai 逃离到了巴黎成为了一名心脏病医生。Gulgakov 对从医有着这样的质疑：「我不会称医生是杀人犯，但是我认为他们是漫不经心的二流人士」。可医学对他来说，仍是苏维埃强权压迫下黑暗日子里的一丝光明：「每个人都应该成为一个医生，去与那些在威胁生命的看不见的敌人们斗争。」

       一共四集，把不同时代的同一个人放到一起，也是一种比较不落俗套的表现形式。
    作品的前半部分还是很吸引人的，尤其是配上稍显滑稽怪诞的配乐，更加生动的表现了医生刚毕业时的生涩和趾高气昂。通过几个大手术也体现了这医生确实具有医术。
    还有不得不说的就是本剧演员的演技，丹尼尔的演技还是让我眼前一亮的，这么多年的“哈利波特”并没有把他框在一个正义少年的形象中脱不出来。另外一个男演员不是很熟悉，不过演技是没得挑的了，“长辈”和吗啡上瘾者都演得很入戏。
    最后来说一下缺陷。其实第一遍看结尾没怎么看懂，就这么结束了？后来回看了一下第一集，才有一点思绪。整个片子就是通过一本笔记回顾了这位俄罗斯医生人生最幸福的一段时光。可是电影想表达什么呢？难道就是想告诫人们不要碰吗啡，这是青少年毒品教育片吗==（ok就写这些吧）

很喜欢这种表现手法，倒叙中插入与自己的对话。面对茫茫的看不到尽头的希望是苍白的，恐怖的。在年轻再有志向的人也会迷失，不管你是十五门优秀，那种迷失是恐惧，到最后败给恐惧。突然觉得跟自己的处境一样，日复一日，来不及思考，或者说思考了还是重复昨天的今天，恐惧到底会来，带着什么来我不知道，好困惑。